The Way Of The World

Two years ago I decided to leave behind my sinful ways and abide by my religion completely. I was committed, I was strong, and I cut everyone from my life who did not believe the same things I did. I lived a more biblical life.

Because I did it that way it soon failed and I returned to what we call the way of the world. I was also living a double life. Why? Because I love both of them so much. Friends from church just as well friends that had no connection to the church.

A few months ago a friend asked me what I was going I do. Eventually I had to chose one life more than the other . At the time I was nieve. I was full of myself and I thought that I could do both. But that’s not the way life works. And if you try it, it’s a nasty fall, both sides would have ended up hating me.

Until recently I had an epiphany. Religion will always be a part of me. Weather I like it or not. Not because anyone is forcing me, but because it’s in my heart and I love it subconsciously. I knew this for a fact when I found myself conversing and debating biblical facts with a friend.

He was trying to say something that I knew from experience wasn’t true. He had a miss understanding. But I thought I was out there hating religion, why was I right there and then defending it? Because I care for it. And I will always have an inclination towards it.

I told my friends what I was thinking. I had an overwhelming well response. They all told me they support me. They will love me no matter what I do and chose. That’s how I knew I had real friends.

This is a new journey. I’m scared that my past will haunt me, but I will own it and move along.

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2 thoughts on “The Way Of The World

  1. I always felt guilty that I didn’t accept or feel comfortable with the religion I grew up in (Baptist). As I hit my thirties I realized that I can’t feel how I want to feel, and nobody can do a thing about it. I decided to be a Theist and just know that God is in my heart, that I’m a good person, that I try to do good in the world, and that maybe there is truth to all religions and it’s not my business what someone else chooses to believe or not believe. Upon discovering that mind-frame, I have found that I am much happier for it.

    God loves you, and He loves me, and He loves the people that don’t even love Him. Be a good person, do good things, trust in God …. everything else will work itself out.

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