I officially give up on love.
Let me explain. I have been on the quest for love ever since I can remember. Maybe since I was 17 years old. I would go in dating sites and talk to guys but would never actually meet up with them. I would never send the first message I was such a wimp.
Later on I decided dating apps weren’t for me but I would always go back to them once in a while. If I felt lonely I would download them. If I wanted love I would download them. It was an on and off kind of feeling.
Until recently I decided I was going to get love if I had to beg for it. So I downloaded some apps instead of waiting to get messaged I would sent out the first messages. I would get dates here and there but most of them just turned into sex rather than love.
It was all fun and games for a while but what I was really after I was not getting. And I wasn’t about to waste my time
the limited time I have to just be people’s sex toy.
But it seems that everyone is only interested in sex. It’s such a stereotype in the gay community. It’s a bad rep. Really bad. And I’m tired of all of it.
I felt really pathetic when I looked back on all the apps I had download over the years. I took a count and it came up to 17 apps. Not counting the ones I download twice
or up to three times.
I say this every time I’m downloading anymore apps. But I always go back no matter what. But this time it’s for reals.
No matter how I feel, I will not download those apps again. There are no more to download.
There is no more to say.
There is no love.